Apparently my birthday is coming up in 8 days? Which would be great, expect that Spring Break is also coming up. Which would be great, except that I was fired a few months ago and so I've been substitute teaching as my income, and with no school means no money. If I still had my teaching job Spring break would be fantastic, becasue it was a salary job and I got paid even through Spring Break and stuff. And that would have worked out even better this year becasue my birthday is that week so my birthday would have had no school. Which normally would have been a good thing but now it stinks.
Anyway, it's been pretty hard and depressing, and (obviously) no one knew I had gotten fired, except for my wife. I only told a handful of people. But with Jensen's baby blessing today both Jackie and David asked me about my work and so I told them what happened so now I might as well tell everyone so that there aren't any secrets. Especially since Hannah my sister is coming to visit later this week.
So I've been looking for work, but odds were slim that they'd hire a teacher midway through the year (Jan 10 was my last day working for APA). And I've looked at other jobs too. I got substitute teaching as the job I have right now, which pays like, half of what APA did with no benefits. And I did subbing before, but that was back when, like, I had no kids and Heather had a job too. And now I have, like, two kids and Heather didn't working and I'm supposed to be providing for my family and I feel like I can't. And it makes me super sad.
*sigh* I'm just typing this all out to get it out of me, and I guess to tell people who think that their life is crappy and everyone else's lives are all figured out that they're wring. Not everyone else had it figured out. Stop comparing your worst to the false idea of their life that they give you, even though their life might actually be crappy behind the smoke and mirrors they put up. Heck, Ryan came through town, twice, after I was fired and he never even knew. And he stayed at my place.
My life isn't all bad, of course. This last Thursday was a teacher career fair at BYU and I went and talked to a few Arizona schools about working there next school year, after doing my student teaching. One school asked if I could do my student teaching while I taught there, which means that they really want me? or something? And it's close to Mesa, but there was another school that was close to Mesa, and I need to figure out this whole student teaching thing because if I just straight student teach then I won't get paid and that means no income for four months, plus hoping beyond hope that then something will magically open up in January, and if not then I'll have my licence but no job to show for it and anyway...
Also, I've been to the Good Move Cafe a few times, and it's awesome. Heather and I participated in a Settlers of Catan tournament there and met a new friend named Chris and then the following Tuesday Chris and I met up there and played games for about 5 straight hours, which was totally amazing. this last Saturday (yesterday) was a game night at the Wilk and that was fun, plus I won the game King of Tokyo! Which I can pick up from the BYUSA office this week. I'm nervous though becasue at the event they just said BYU ID, which I do have, but my claims ticket says Student ID, so I hope they don't suddenly refuse to give it to me because I'm not a student.
Anyway, and I saw Jacob and Brandon today before the baby blessing but never got a chance to invite them to play games sometime. But with job worries mounting due to Spring break coming up, I guess I should have other things on my mind.
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