Sunday, August 18, 2019

Impostor Syndrome

Alright, so I have impostor syndrome.


Basically, I am still amazed that I am considered an adult. I still feel like a kid. I don't feel mature. How on earth do I have two kids? How am I supposed to raise them? Do they really think of me as their father? I don't feel like I can be a father. I'm still young and immature. Everyone else around me has everything figured out and together, while I'm just still winging everything. Am I supposed to know how to adult? Forget it.

One definition of impostor syndrome is: those that have a ton of accomplishments but feel like they don't deserve the credit or praise or whatever because they just account it to luck or whatnot. They feel like a fraud, like, how on earth could they have created that amazing thing?

But it doesn't just have to deal with people with a lot of accomplishments. It can also apply to people that, say, are adults but still fell like a kid. Or those at a workplace where they are just faking it 'til they're trying to make it while it seems like everyone else at the job knows exactly what is going on and have their acts together. Hey, both those definitions fit me.



In other news, I have learned (for the third time!) how to solve a Rubik's Cube. My most recent record is under a minute and a half. (1:27)